i dun haf e flair of bein expressive, its juz abt mi ..
and soon i am going to miss seeing selina almost everyday. i am going to miss her hugs and the can’t-make-out words she coos.
am going to move in to our new nest soon while renovations are at the touching up phase.
its time for us to grow and to learn how to manage the home well (:
awwww.
how i hate being sick on my off days!
sickness invade at least 80% of my deserved off days/AL.. i just don’t understand.
our new nest is ready sooooon. how excited we can be! went up that day to see the size of my wardrobe. gosh! i felt its really big enough for all my 40+ cartons of clothes but now come to think of it… i still think it isn’t enough for my clothes….. duh…. lols. well, friends, i might have to give out to you some of you who are of the same size as me!!! how generous of me…. hahahaha!
my little niece has fallen off the chair few days back. the minute i got home to see her bruised and swollen eye, my tears welled up. i can’t control that but it really pains me. however she was still so so so so active and she still wants to get up that chair luh! i wonder how many days more before the swelling will go….
today its the third day and my stomach is still churning really badly. i hate visiting the doctor and so i self-medicate. desperately self-medicating to get my stomach well again. i need to go Dr Lee’s later and i want to be able to head downtown a fresh-looking auntie luh.
hubby is snoring so loudly right now. how i do wish i could sleep like him.
yet suddenly the scars just surfaced…………….
though i remembered cutting and cutting, i wasn’t that hard on myself. guess, a part of me was just dare not.
oh well.
never had much thought about it some -eons ago until two days back, was jolted to really think about it. much as i hate to let go but it was obviously i had to. proper wise, i can have a say but ultimately, it still depends on either ):
the 8th day as a –. hows the feeling like?
hmm. though i sensed and i heard it was a last minute decision, i seriously thought… could i go back to mpg??? seriously, i preferred being an — but being an — ic, its pretty much the same as a –. lollls. all the —— must be making u wonder what the heck i am referring to right? 
the buzz in mcs seemed to take a sudden nose-dive after 2009. its much worst than the quieter days during the past three months. noticed though, more and more budget tourists are popping in and their buying power is near zero. speaking in their own native languages among themselves and trying, trying, trying the makeup testers seemed to elate them so much but however when they heard the prices, they seemed to coolly walk over to the budget cosmetics section luh ):
i have been cracking my brain for ideas and sapping hubby’s brain juices too. maybe i should sit under an apple tree (:
an off day tomorrow but i will be busy! heading to my new home to see the laminate flooring done (:
yeah, a few days away and i am looking very much forward to move in to my very own home sweet home (:
put that aside… i am actually emo-ing now. boo!
if there’s anything i miss about childhood
meeting was a long one. ended 6plus, 15mins to 7?
it was a short brief by dl. somehow, i like what she had said (:
like what i always thought, she’s really motherly.
the last day of the last month of the last year 2009.
have been like a superwoman for the whole day. on almost everything that needs to be done asap.
islandwide gwp starts tomorrow and i pray hard the responses will be good. first day of the first month of a
BRAND NEW YEAR. 2010 you gotta be good for me and my gals!
yours truly is too old for any outdoor countdown activities. 00:00 striked and there i was staring out of the door catching the fireworks across the causeway while hubby had been fixing up the new 50″ telly for my parents-in-law to watch the countdown variety program.
heading straight to bed now as i need to re-charge all the energy i could to finish paperwork by tomorrow.
nites peeps and wishing all of you a HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2010 will be a good one and you have to believe and work hard for your goals 
just to share, this is my master bedroom lights for my new home
-hugggs-
its really scary that i can have countless number of cravings for different food at all times of the days, weeks and months. moron hubby commented he cannot ever imagine if i were to be pregnant, the high level of cravings i am going to have and he went -sighs- seriously, there must be something really wrong in me. glutton but i like. burp…. =)
(=
yesterday i had some sudden cravings and hubby was sweet enough (although he stated t&c!!!) to walk to the zi char stall blocks away to get me 1kg of …… CHILLI CRABBBBBS!
we both shared and i had at least a good yummy 3/4 portion of it plus my two plates of fried rice……
ooooh, i heart! 
i have got a new blogskin theme and i am kind of liking it. love to have a pink, black or a white one but i am lazy to learn how to create one nice one as all those codes are making me this it nut so more nuts. thus i am just settling for one of the 78 themes offered by wordpress =)
woke up early (what’s new) even though its my off day. i dreamt of something last night and it probably is affecting me but i just can’t recall it.
in a matter of a few days, its gonna be a brand new year. just for me. its a fact that a day has to go by, a month, a year has to move on. however 2010 is going to be a totally brand new year with more challenging tasks that will come my way. no resolutions will be made this year. thats a boo-boo for me as i know and any of you who read my previous years’ blogs, i can never KEEP resolutions luh. as hard as i know i have to but i am always squirming my way and avoiding some of the kind-of important resolutions. well, the only one i probably made it was bracing my teeth. -ouch-
as much and as eager as i am, i am happy with everything but there are somethings seriously lacking and that is kind of pushing forward the thought of giving up. for those who really know me, i am not one that gives up easily on what i love best. one, is the results and the other one more thing is also making me derived of my happy pills. it had been three months of going back home straight after work, often skipping meals, sacrificing my gourmet pleasures, movie dates just to save as much as i can.
kind of depressing to adjust to this kind of life although i am already accustomed to but i seemed to be losing the joys of life and my soul. how long could that go on until? i still want to save that 4d in my bank and i still want to eat buffets and my sashimi 
these 6 years, i have gone through the baby steps, to crawl and walk but i have yet to learn how to step out of the shadows of others. i have always been that negative about myself. super. always been receiving encouraging words from alot of people (thank you! -hugssssss-) but somehow, deep down in me, i always still have a doubt in myself. i am one if i cannot excel in what i do, i rather do my very best and let it just be it and just hide somewhere.
three months had passed and i don’t know what have i achieved for mcs. i see no results. totally can’t. only a huge debt i incurred
3 more days. its a scary thought. it is not something that i have been hankering after and can i still remain as a —? i don’t wish to disappoint jy, dl and the rest of the team………………… can i really do it?
thanks for cheering…
selina, say “hi”
she’s such a bright little girl.
although she’s not blood related to me in anyway, i feel really attached to her. misses her whenever she’s back to kelvin’s home and will always look forward when she’s back to our home.
no words could really describe her. maybe just… adorable?
spent the christmas evening with her, hubby and agnes downtown yesterday. her first time in orchard seeing all those christmas decorations around her. wished i could snap some pictures of her with the christmas tree outside paragon but its really sardine-packed and almost impossible.
playing with food…
we went shokudo for our dinner as we had some vouchers courtesy from a client of hubby’s company. we spent almost two hours in there as we were also waiting for my in-laws who were at marriott for a wedding dinner.
human jam.
selina with my in-laws
sent my in-laws and agnes home before we rushed down to lunar to meet michelle and the gang. missed the countdown in lunar itself although we saw the screaming crowd outside.
simple chic.
saw dray?
live.
do i look like an extreme fan? lol.
let me be queen for a second or so
left for home at about 2plus. i was having a bad headache probably due to lack of sleep the previous night. hubby was not feeling very well after the dinner at shokudo as well.
christmas to me need not be really getting wild and partying through the night and getting all tipsy and hang-overed the next day. christmas can be simply spent just gathering and meeting up with treasured ones even for just an hour or two hours or so.
it was good to see michelle and the gang after some few months that we hadn’t met up
i left lunar wondering what happened to the group of friends who had a brawl in there. drinking and getting drunk could actually harm a friendship if things go out of hand. hope all’s forgiven and forgotten.
its going to be a long day ahead again. gonna be real busy with more online searches, comparisons and more shop visitings.
right now, we need to map out the destinations we needed to head to and make sure none of them is missed out
we need to find doors, grilles, master bedroom’s lighting (so hard to find one perfect one!), breakfast table chairs, wardrobes….
hopefully, we could move in by mid january as my in-laws’ new maid will be arriving by then.
alrights, heading out soon!
looking much forward to tomorrow as i will be going to meet my ex-mpg team for dinner!
yippee! it has been three months and i am really missing them
was thinking of getting some little xmas pressies for them… any idea??? maybe i could do some shopping if i could squeeze some time out tonight
it had been a long day but its still ♥
a peep into our breakfast
we simply tried to live without
out of the house early with the intention of heading our new home to check on the air-con but we forgot about it and headed instead towards the 2nd destination on the list, the police academy, to renew hubby’s passport. memory loss…………!
along the way, hubby decided since he did not really know the way there, we might as well go to the amk furniture shop to settle an exchange.
hubby had decided to change the bed frame we had purchased. spent quite a long time browsing and trying our best to find something we really like and we could change to but there was simply nothing luh and so we decided on an extra dining chair, bench and a dining room lighting
at the traffic lights…
took on the kje, pie down to imm for more ideas and the hope of getting the rest of the house lightings and furniture but….. again, nothing else caught our eyes other than one way-out-of our budget mini chandelier. its really lovely but too bad no photography allowed sob!
anyway, other stuffs made up for meeeee…….. my attention was swayed at each turns we made….
at least not the usual shade of christmas tree
any shop that sells HK and i am BANNED from either browsing or purchasing. that’s so wicked!!!! laaaaa!
daiso! another addiction of mine
my needs! pinkkkkkk!
as we continued our search, i managed to sneak into mini toons and grab some HK tibits and a HK pocket notebook (for what!!!?). hubby was exasperated and remarked bringing Selina out was much easier than controlling me
next stop, it was either balestier or jalan besar and we chose the latter. if we couldn’t find any lightings we fancy, we will head back to balestier.
one of the shops in the stretch of jalan besar we went into.
countless number of shops we had been seriously browsing and thinking. i was almost losing my patience as i was super tired already. the number of hours spent online and on the streets hunting for furniture and lightings this month is draining our energy.
the more we see, the more confused we get and almost quite a number shops seemed to sell lightings good enough as sale items but at steep price though!
its like finally, we decided on almost all lightings except for the master bedroom’s.
headed down to a nearby hawker centre to grab some late dinner for the family. i don’t like the drinking ah peks there.
we forgot all of our purchases which were in the car was only after dinner when we remembered! thank goodness, it wasn’t a cab that we were in!
as quickly as we had our dinner, we rushed off to cwp’s seahorse to purchase an advertised storage bed that was a good buy we thought! i was happy to have a storage bed for allllll my cartons of photograph albums and stuff toys…. but was quite upset when hubby strictly told me NO STUFF TOYS IN OUR HOUSE!!!!
how can a gal live without stuff toys?
tummy doesn’t feel well. had too much fried oyster ($8!), fried tway teow and wu xiang. i just feel like puking. hubby laughed as it was the first time he heard me saying i feel like puking after a heavy dinner!
s*** him. am i really such a garbage bin in his eyes?
i need a sleep badly. mahjong is on in the living room but i bet i can sleep through it a sleep debt i am owing as the night before, i couldn’t sleep a wink.
tee hee hee! ♥
oyasumi nasai! ♥
after training, i headed back to csm to meet hubby as we were going balestier to look for lightings, again. in and out we went but still can’t find anything that fancies us or suits our dining table. went seafood kampong for dinner with my in-laws and we headed back to balestier to continue the futile search… =) bought my favourite beancurd and soya milk and i left balestier a happy gal! =)
on the way home in the car, i heard an upsetting dedication from not a guy to his gf or a gal to her husband but from a father to his two grown up children who are already mature adults. this was longing for them to call him eversince they lost contact two years ago and he was dedicating this song title “right here waiting”. being a listener, i may not know what caused the silent separation for two whole years but it does sound rather emotional to have deserted a parent without much concern about their being. that’s sad and i know out in the world, there should be even more cases of “enmity” between family members =(
home, home, home and we were deciding on colours, colours and colours again! sounds easy preasy to choose but there’s alot to think about! headache. we decided finally on a dining lighting though. will head back to the furniture shop where we got our dining table and just get the one that we thought looked the best.
i am so tired. its raining outside and i can’t sleep…… there are some things i needed to get off my chest and to ask, ask, ask but hmmm…. best not that i know =(
my baobei~*
i am SERIOUSLY craving for spicy laksa…… with lots of hhhhummmm!!! gonna hunt for it later! off to emo-town now or i am gonna be late
oh yeah! i ate it! not exactly spicy though!!!
in two days times, its 3 ALs and 1 rest day. yippee! but its gonna clash with a promising weekend event and there goes a wee little more commission. boo hoo hoo!
real slow day today. which other day isn’t as slow as this? ;P
did i mention about this irritating man who goes calling bas up to say our company is giving us FREE high heel shoes for work??? its the freaking 12345th time he called. maybe the next time he calls, i shall give him imh’s number. hey, i ever received calls from some irritating people who ask what kind of stockings do i wear too. so bo-liao. don’t they have any other better things to do then to get that kind of kick of “teasing” us.
-_-
my feb cny plans of a holiday with hubby and mum to brisbane has to be postponed. i couldn’t find a ba to fill in the days i wanted to AL hopefully, we could go in march ya? *cross fingers*
pauline is going on AL and i hope and i know she’s going to really enjoy her well-deserved holidays we really need so much for some let-loose days.
3 more months……. my turn!!!
