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claryna — Wed, 05 Oct 2011 16:08:52 +0000

Life has been mundane and I feel almost lifeless at times.

Work, home, work, home, work, home, work, home, work and then home.

Totally lost touch with almost anything I have been doing in the past.

Wishing this year to end faster and hoping 2012 will be a better year for me.

August Babies

claryna — Fri, 26 Aug 2011 05:03:47 +0000

Chill out at IndoChine, Clarke Quay.

Happy 21st Birthday Ella!

Us I love you gals and Gary too

Aki, Cheah Hwa, Ella, Gary, Shu Yan, Cindy

August Babies Thank you Cindy for the rose!

Thank you for the thought and the plans for the night

Muffins! If you love me, love Muffins too! Hahahaha!

claryna — Mon, 27 Jun 2011 22:29:50 +0000

My new pet dwarf rabbit. MUFFINS!

I bought her for just $50 from a pet shop owner introduced by Cheah Hwa.

She was a neglected and abandoned rabbit. I don’t understand how could any heartless person actually abandon her as well as two more rabbits outside a pet shop in Elias Mall!

I am unsure of her age but certainly knows she’s a female (HAHAHA!) and since bringing her back on the night of 21st, Muffins is still very guarded against me!

Muffins is menstruating now and oh, it’s really smelly!!!

Been taking good care of her and Muffins is so lucky to have a maid like me.

She gets to hop around my house and I am always picking her poo after her!

Thankful.

claryna — Mon, 27 Jun 2011 22:18:02 +0000

The thought of this month’s 20% sales and basic sales had been of extreme mental pain. I had receive no full GWP support for the targets and no faith in the sufficiency of stocks.

The stress was not going easy as the day draws nearer and nearer. Morale was really down as I discovered some things. I tried to take stride in what I have learned and reacted almost quickly.

I was aware that I was very upset but I decided I got to do something to ease that problem. Thankfully, I did.

On the eve of 20% itself, I was unable to sleep. Alot went through my mind. If this 20% fails me, who am I going to blame? 50 sets of GWP for support of a hefty target was ridiculous. I was thinking ahead of my CY targets and what I needed to close per month based on events. I don’t wish to fail myself although at this point of time I felt the office team had failed me!

Thankfully, the crowds were in before lunch and by 1pm, I was already hitting my own personal target for that day! As usual, most of regulars were streaming in one after another and some bought actually more than a few hundreds!

Yes, as a CM, I am also a businesswoman! I got to think and work what is best for my counter and thank God I did for this 20%!

On our own merits, we managed to close 28k.

Thank you MCS team and a big THANK YOU to our regulars!

My team knows clearly my stresses, they know their own targets and they tried really hard to closer the huge variance for themselves and for me. Thank God too, for His grace and sufficiency too!

Won’t be giving up still to try aim closer to achieve my June’s target! Although it’s impossible to make up for the variances last month, I am thankful enough to be nearing my target for this month. Close of FY11 in a few days’ time and it’s going to be a fresh start for the new FY.

MCS team, keep up the positive momentum!

I am still far from my utd CY targets but I will still want to continue my very best.

Shell-shocked, for the 2nd time.

claryna — Fri, 24 Jun 2011 12:42:40 +0000

Change is inevitable.

I swear my heart and mind was in a whirlpool when I heard the piece of news from my boss. This was the next shock after the first shock I received in the email about the resignation of my STM

Though the chances of working together had been short despite the long years we had been in the company but the presence of them around are still comfort and memorable.

Will really miss the joy and the laughter that you all had brought in my life in Lauder

Sincerely wishing you all the best and I know wherever we are, it’s still a fact we can’t deny that we had been really a good team and we put up the best fight for Lauder

Ooh la-la!

claryna — Tue, 14 Jun 2011 19:42:26 +0000

Two things that I heard today. One draw a high roar of laughter from me and the other was totally unpleasing to my ears. Yes. Both is about work.

Indeed, I feel I have been really tolerating some people for a really long, long time. Anyway, I am going to put it in my mind, a job is just a job. Efforts checked. Attitude checked. Initiative checked. What more do I expect out from myself when people doesn’t even bother to appreciate or even help? Never mind.

In exactly a month, I am going on a short shopping trip with my colleagues! Woohoo! I have just came back from Taiwan and I am dying for another trip. Can’t wait. Can’t wait! This time round, I am bringing a large one. A LARGE luggage. It’s kinda funny when I look through my buys from Taiwan, they are amazingly few and are yet really cheap in Taiwan but how was it possible that I spent all the $700 I exchanged? This time, I will bring more to spend in Bangkok. MORE!

Shopping to de-stress and to make me really smile! Perfect excuse, perfect excuse! Haha!

Some pictures of my Taiwan trip

Time for bed. I really hope to sleep well! It’s Singapore time 3.40am. I know I am gonna be awake by 7am. Screwed sleep schedule!

Good night peeps!

23 hours and I am counting down! Wheeeeeee!

claryna — Mon, 06 Jun 2011 02:02:47 +0000

Crazily excited about stepping foot into Taiwan after my last visit in 2007!!!

This time I am making this 4D3N (short, short, super short) trip with my friend of 22 years + her boyfriend and hubbykins!

Can’t wait.. can’t wait… I have been counting down so much and hard since the day we booked the tickets like in March? Initially, I was thinking of going on more trips this year but I have only managed to squeeze time for Taiwan and Bangkok. Maldives and Europe got to wait again.

Gonna start packing my luggage, like right now. Let you on on a little secret : - SERIOUSLY got a super irksome habit! I can pack days before a trip and then taking some out and replacing with other sets of matching outfits. Duh. This, I hope won’t happen later? I like to match my outfits down from accessories to the makeup and from the tops to the bottoms, including shoes. Headache.

I hope I won’t find much to buy (since I just got rid of many, many bags of unworn clothes recently!) as I still got a Bangkok trip to make in July!

Thinking of holidays make me really more happy. Work, I gonna cast you aside.. Yes, I wish I can but sigh, I signed on auto roaming just so that my team can call me while I am away =.=”

I am still left with SO MANY. I have still got drawers of them. HAIX!

Riding with the PUNCHES! Remind me NOT again -.-”

claryna — Sat, 04 Jun 2011 02:16:58 +0000

A simple reason why hadn’t I log on to update my cobwebbed blog – WORK.

Totally drained my mood and energy away!

Some stuffs are beginning to rob away the passion I had for the job. Don’t wish to say more because I am very disheartened about this job. I love Estee Lauder but sigh! I hope to keep the best memories alive in me.

Everyone, almost many whom seen, work with me before, remarked, I am no longer the bubbly, happy, positive me.

Truly AGREE.

Recently heard about the resignation of my STM. Shed tears immediately, really immediately when I was staring at the email. Somehow, I knew she will be resigning but why so soon??? :’( Pondered quite long to text her but in the end, I held back. I really don’t know what to say. To say, I am very sad? It’s true but sounds a little drama…

Alrighty. Enough of emo-ness, I have to be strong and remind myself of my principles and focus on my goal. It’s really sad that along the way, obstacles restrict you and they have to come straight from people whom I thought was FAIR. So enough, is enough. I am certainly going to move on. I have enough of it

One more day of work and I am having my FIRST rest day in 13 days. Woohoo! Counting down two more days and off I am going for a short 4D3N Taiwan trip with Michelle and Brian! Yeah! I want to go the Maldives but think of it, I don’t SUN-TAN! I only the hotels and the beach! Rather save the money and wait for a better time to tour Europe!

Choose love. Yes, I still love you all the same despite the shit I get.

A stalk of rose from my little niece Sweet!

Can I seriously don’t be too crazy over Hello Kitty?

First visit to a Chinese physician. Me to treat my leg and feet. Cheah Hwa to treat her wrist’s inflammation

Damn bored right now.

claryna — Thu, 28 Apr 2011 07:05:43 +0000

I have a fantastic 3 days of Rest and 1 day of AL starting TODAY. -SCREAMMMMMS- This is what I am looking forward to after straight long days of working h-a-r-d. Meant to clear out my wardrobe (continue with giving out, giving away almost everything I own!) but the start of morning had clearly been a time for me to NUA. Hahahahaha! Woke up as usual at 7.30am. Doing nothing much physically, playing Iphone games, Whatsapping Alice and some friends from my bed, tweeting, reading tweets, clearing a little space from my com, opening up my Hello Kitty cupboard and wondering why on earth I collect so much pretty, cute Hello Kitty stuffs and not using a single bit of them?!? How often do I peek into it and it’s like a few months once? Hahaha. This hobby is killing my pockets and space! Gonna get myself busy doing something right now but hey, I am really feeling lazy in every bit of my bones. Urrrrgh. Proscastination then! Nah. I gotta, gotta, gotta do something! I did play with the idea of boiling soup for my hubby dear. Maybe, I SHOULD!

Thank you, Lord.

claryna — Thu, 28 Apr 2011 03:27:11 +0000

Be still… In the realm of faith, I trust in You oh Lord.

Yes, He answered my prayers, He stood by my fears and led me through.

I remembered being so panicky, so lost, so confused, so down and almost going cranky (Gary said so, I was crazy. Lol).

I snap when I am stressed and I talk like a crazy person. Hahs.

Somehow, I know I will go through this.

Yes, indeed I did with Him in me that led me through.

Everything came in His time.

Thank you dear Lord.

Day off is a day of love + sweet pleasure

claryna — Thu, 28 Apr 2011 03:17:06 +0000

Goes beyond.

claryna — Sat, 23 Apr 2011 18:02:09 +0000

3 days of 20% has passed. Working full shifts on these three days is more tired than working 1st – 2oth, I swear. 12 more working hours to go.

I am going cranky, mad, disillusioned, exhausted anytime soon I think?

This is crazy.

I have got so much to rant.

So much, so much but since my blog is NOT private, I don’t think it’s an appropriate channel for me to rant it out.

You know, I know, we both know

Blown.

claryna — Thu, 21 Apr 2011 16:41:08 +0000

Totally dampening.

Damps the already bad impression I have of you people.

Sometimes, I know what drives you to do desperate, dishonest things like this.

Still, I don’t believe the reason to do so was that compelling.

Disappointed and totally

18th, 19th, 20th, 21st….

claryna — Mon, 18 Apr 2011 03:14:47 +0000

A brand new week to start off with and okay, I am so excited that 20% (T&C applies la!) is around the corner again! 4 DAYS of it!! Gonna be mad tired but well, without any efforts, what kind of results can you achieve!?

That’s the favourite best buy sales time for ALL Metro/UOB cardmembers (for the first day, there are some specials buys/promotions) as well as members of the public (for the last three days) .

Sales haven’t been really easy on my stresses and I hope to catch up on the variances during this weekend. Cross fingers, cross toes! Cross yours too!

Had a fabulous weekend of rest day + AL and although I hadn’t got more than 8 hours (seriously la!) sleep since Thursday, I seemed still pretty energetic. Maybe, probably, its due to the countless packs of Kit Kat I had???

Gonna get prepared soon and head out with a change of mindset!

Simple JoYs.

claryna — Sun, 17 Apr 2011 02:55:27 +0000

Some of those perfect moments that make up for the stresses at work

Misses much.

claryna — Fri, 15 Apr 2011 04:09:25 +0000

A Sunday date with my ex-Seiyu team gals, minus Amanda who can’t make it this time round.

Great catch-up, Sha’ann is excitedly planning for her wedding and Ju is happily working a 9-5 job sans STRESS!

Gonna meet you gals up soon again.

This time, my treat!

I miss those days just like you gals feel and do too.

The night begins at PH!

claryna — Fri, 15 Apr 2011 03:34:15 +0000

I don’t club often.

Maybe twice to thrice a year? Or on average, thrice in two years? Hahs.

I love you gals and guy (Gary!!!). Although, I don’t express it out, I do enjoy you people’s presence in my life.

Thank you for making me feel so young! Haha!

I still remembered Cindy and Aki pulling me up to the platform to dance. Oh gosh, oh gosh -Hide face-

This time, I managed to control and I didn’t go home drunk and high. Hubby doesn’t like and of course, I knew I got to work morning the next day too…

Never liked the hangover feel especially that night after Shanghai Dolly

The next one, Audrey, you gotta come along! <3

Choked but otherwise strong.

claryna — Thu, 14 Apr 2011 16:07:19 +0000

Feeling too choked, strangled but I am good in acting happy and alright.

Mind you. I am not fake.

I am merely putting up a brave front and not allowing others to worry about me.

Bring it on!

claryna — Sun, 10 Apr 2011 02:55:13 +0000

First Week of April. Sweat. Challenging myself further <3

Excited Bunny!

claryna — Sun, 10 Apr 2011 02:40:40 +0000

I can’t be more excited than ever.

Short trips getaway planned for the year are realizing!

Hubby love has always been wanting to visit Taiwan and finally, a short one is planned with Michelle and Brian!

Due to work commitments and constraints, we can only fly off in the month of June for a 4D3N one! Gosh, that’s only in less than two months! -SCREAMSSSSSSSS- Tickets were confirmed yesterday afternoon and woohoo!!! Simply can’t wait!

Had initially thought of Japan for the month of March and somehow, the plans did not materialize and I am really glad it didn’t… Sighs. I will be back there soon okay? I can never get sick of sight-seeing in Japan despite visiting this lovely country for almost ten times these few years?

The next short 4D3N trip is planned for July! This time, it’s off to BANGKOK, the shopping heaven for freaking blog-shop lovers like me who dig lovely cheap manicure sessions, salivating street food too!!! I can’t wait, I can’t wait!!! Still in the midst of searching for accommodations and oh boy, Budacco, the 1st choice on our list, is fully booked for the dates we are going to be there.

Been awhile